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Dec. 21st, 2017 02:36 amSomeone’s breath. That heavy breath
How can I see through that?
Though I can’t understand your breath
It’s alright I’ll hold you
Someone’s breath. That heavy breath
How can I see through that?
Though I can’t understand your breath
It’s alright I’ll hold you
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Sep. 10th, 2016 11:25 pmLast night was... strange?
Forcing myself to say twice as much, smile twice as much, BE twice as much,
talk about everything and nothing at all...
just so incredibly tiring.
Or maybe it was J's not-so-subtle put downs that she doesn't think I will dare to do anything about
(besides awk-giggling, because that is my idiotic go-to response to everything I don't know how to deal with)
(ugh that woman, I hate her and - worse - I hate that she's right).
Or P's speech, which was both embarrassing and moving
(and no, not embarrassing in a moving kind of way).
Or listening to other people's speeches and comparing myself to the other trainees,
because - hey - nothing like a little self-hatred and discontent to perk up your day, right? :D
I want so desperately to be good at something.
It kind of sucks that it's that way.
It kind of sucks that it still is that way despite my knowing that it shouldn't be.
long overdue
Aug. 9th, 2016 11:22 pmI've come several times to this place recently,
meaning to reflect a bit more.
Or, at the very least, a bit more than 'ohhh pretty music yay me happyz', lol.
(A desire set off by W saying he wanted to read this trusty crusty journal, if I am honest.
...a journal which is more of a drama/music review journal + Idol of the Month than anything more substantial,
if I am even more honest.
So, W, if you're reading this - I apologise in advance.)
But anyway.
I've neglected this place, perhaps to my detriment. ><
And now so much has happened since the last proper entry
that I feel almost overwhelmed thinking about the sheer amount I need to think about? (ooh inception)
Breaking it down and taking it bit by bit, as I would tell clients to do
(sometimes I think the skills have helped me more than they have clients - not sure if that's sad or tremendous):
1) W
I've learnt so much about myself, so much about how another ought to be cared for...
and at times I'm so, so conscious that there's still much left to be learnt,
and many mistakes left to be made.
-Committing how things turn out to God AND trusting that He has our best interests in mind.
-Keeping Him at the centre, keeping others in the picture (and how that actually works out in practical ways).
-Learning and re-learning the fact that I'm no longer alone at the centre of my life,
avoiding getting so caught up in my own concerns that I forget the existence and concerns of others.
-Expressiveness, communication, TALKING through things
as opposed to stuffing them under the covers and hoping they'll die a quiet death.
-Taking steps out of my comfort zone (that feel like leaps off a cliff even though they're really the tiniest shuffles lmao).
-Telling the truth but /always/ in love, being careful with what I say
(how true, that 'the words of the reckless pierce like swords').
-Being vulnerable.
-Being silly.
-Taking affection+compliments with grace.
-Figuring my emotions/reasoning out.
-Fielding opinions.
It's definitely a WIP and additional responsibility,
and the emotions are often raw and confusing (I've cried way more frequently than I'd care to admit),
but at the same time it is /such/ a blessing -
to be on this journey together, part of something so beautiful/unexpected/unexpectedly thrilling,
to be cared for in such an indescribably different way.
Sometimes difficult, yes, but I'm thankful.
2) Family
Thankful for family, as always.
Mom continues to be a super-helpful source of encouragement and advice
on relationships/Christianity/life in general,
Dad continues to be... anxious hahaha. xD
More seriously, though,
I thank God that they had the chance to take on the catechism group together -
it's wonderful that they could serve together and balance each other's qualities out,
that Dad had an opportunity to use his knowledge in a more structured/contained way.
Also thankful for Dad's involvement in BH stuff,
for Mom being able to spread her encouragement to some of the AG people too(!),
and just...how supportive they have been with everything, really.
They do have their weaknesses - I don't deny that -
but they have always been there for me when I needed them and wonderful to go to regarding spiritual matters.
And always ready to say what they believe is in my best interests,
no matter how willingly they think I will take it on.
I couldn't be more grateful, and secure.
For Jie as well, with her random anecdotes and special-snowflake sense of humour (xD)
and general awesomeness even though she's got her own difficulties. <3
Dad continues to be very affected by Gong2's illness.
Note to self: I need to start praying in advance for him
to work through what he needs to work through / experience God's peace.
3) Course/therapy
Like DBT says (and as I constantly say to A) - I've done some work, and there's still more work to be done.
I've been talking to a number of people about this,
so what I'm about to say here has already been concretised:
I think most of this year has been about me finding out more about my identity as a therapist,
and kinda sorta starting to deal with it -
the issues that will plague me (anxiety, assertiveness),
the stuff I'm okay at (validation, understanding).
I'm thankful for my placement and supervisor, and for the teaching on the course -
perhaps they weren't the absolute best they could have been,
but they could (seriously!) have been much worse.
I do have my complaints about the nature of the placement
(mostly the lack of variation in client demographic and 2nd-wave stuff),
but I loved that I could work long-term with people,
that I got to do both individual and group work (and teach! And plan, and deal with mistakes in that plan),
that I had got to work with people that provide such different perspectives on therapy.
And that it exposed my issues right-up.
I also think I've improved with the thinking-on-my-feet thing. A little, at least.
(And whenever I hear complaints about things that I thought were alright,
I can't help wondering if I'm too uncritical...
but ignorance is bliss, I suppose.)
4) Church
Thankful for St Helen's (oops, nearly typed St Hellen's lol).
Sometimes it feels a little too perfect(? I can't really explain it),
but it's given me new perspectives on things.
-I'm now better able to see the bigger picture
(whether it's my life or the present moment in the context of eternity/the new creation,
or each Bible verse in the context of the chapter --> book --> Bible).
-Focus on the Word, and on the role of the Word in convicting us.
-One-to-one's have also been incredibly helpful,
just being able to see how St H's bible-reading principles can work in a v positive way
(unlike small groups where leaders may not necessarily bring them to bear in the spirit in which they were meant),
working through books bit by bit and discovering for myself what they mean to me,
learning skills I could see myself applying back home with others,
being excited to see the changes V will be making in ZB after going back... ack. :'D
-Tons of good feeding from the sermons and talks.
Just the variety of things that go on and are actually highly targeted/invite good speakers?
-Community - S, A, H, J in particular.
5) Things I miss most:
-PEOPLE, mostly. And sharing lives.
This time back, it was great to catch up with the people I could catch up with.
Family (mostly Nainai and S), K, A, P, Y, J, V, the York girls, BOD (whom I didn't get to meet this time round, sigh ><).
-Home cooking.
Current entertainment:
-On a C-drama run atm (kickstarted by Lang Ya Bang, ugh).
I rue the day I started down the rabbithole - they are LONG and I end up watching loads at a go.
And if the storyline peters out I've invested so much time already that I have to see it through, haha.
-Subin's solo mini is all-round loveliness.
-Also the 方大同 X 王力宏 collab! Jam.
meaning to reflect a bit more.
Or, at the very least, a bit more than 'ohhh pretty music yay me happyz', lol.
(A desire set off by W saying he wanted to read this trusty crusty journal, if I am honest.
...a journal which is more of a drama/music review journal + Idol of the Month than anything more substantial,
if I am even more honest.
So, W, if you're reading this - I apologise in advance.)
But anyway.
I've neglected this place, perhaps to my detriment. ><
And now so much has happened since the last proper entry
that I feel almost overwhelmed thinking about the sheer amount I need to think about? (ooh inception)
Breaking it down and taking it bit by bit, as I would tell clients to do
(sometimes I think the skills have helped me more than they have clients - not sure if that's sad or tremendous):
1) W
I've learnt so much about myself, so much about how another ought to be cared for...
and at times I'm so, so conscious that there's still much left to be learnt,
and many mistakes left to be made.
-Committing how things turn out to God AND trusting that He has our best interests in mind.
-Keeping Him at the centre, keeping others in the picture (and how that actually works out in practical ways).
-Learning and re-learning the fact that I'm no longer alone at the centre of my life,
avoiding getting so caught up in my own concerns that I forget the existence and concerns of others.
-Expressiveness, communication, TALKING through things
as opposed to stuffing them under the covers and hoping they'll die a quiet death.
-Taking steps out of my comfort zone (that feel like leaps off a cliff even though they're really the tiniest shuffles lmao).
-Telling the truth but /always/ in love, being careful with what I say
(how true, that 'the words of the reckless pierce like swords').
-Being vulnerable.
-Being silly.
-Taking affection+compliments with grace.
-Figuring my emotions/reasoning out.
-Fielding opinions.
It's definitely a WIP and additional responsibility,
and the emotions are often raw and confusing (I've cried way more frequently than I'd care to admit),
but at the same time it is /such/ a blessing -
to be on this journey together, part of something so beautiful/unexpected/unexpectedly thrilling,
to be cared for in such an indescribably different way.
Sometimes difficult, yes, but I'm thankful.
2) Family
Thankful for family, as always.
Mom continues to be a super-helpful source of encouragement and advice
on relationships/Christianity/life in general,
Dad continues to be... anxious hahaha. xD
More seriously, though,
I thank God that they had the chance to take on the catechism group together -
it's wonderful that they could serve together and balance each other's qualities out,
that Dad had an opportunity to use his knowledge in a more structured/contained way.
Also thankful for Dad's involvement in BH stuff,
for Mom being able to spread her encouragement to some of the AG people too(!),
and just...how supportive they have been with everything, really.
They do have their weaknesses - I don't deny that -
but they have always been there for me when I needed them and wonderful to go to regarding spiritual matters.
And always ready to say what they believe is in my best interests,
no matter how willingly they think I will take it on.
I couldn't be more grateful, and secure.
For Jie as well, with her random anecdotes and special-snowflake sense of humour (xD)
and general awesomeness even though she's got her own difficulties. <3
Dad continues to be very affected by Gong2's illness.
Note to self: I need to start praying in advance for him
to work through what he needs to work through / experience God's peace.
3) Course/therapy
Like DBT says (and as I constantly say to A) - I've done some work, and there's still more work to be done.
I've been talking to a number of people about this,
so what I'm about to say here has already been concretised:
I think most of this year has been about me finding out more about my identity as a therapist,
and kinda sorta starting to deal with it -
the issues that will plague me (anxiety, assertiveness),
the stuff I'm okay at (validation, understanding).
I'm thankful for my placement and supervisor, and for the teaching on the course -
perhaps they weren't the absolute best they could have been,
but they could (seriously!) have been much worse.
I do have my complaints about the nature of the placement
(mostly the lack of variation in client demographic and 2nd-wave stuff),
but I loved that I could work long-term with people,
that I got to do both individual and group work (and teach! And plan, and deal with mistakes in that plan),
that I had got to work with people that provide such different perspectives on therapy.
And that it exposed my issues right-up.
I also think I've improved with the thinking-on-my-feet thing. A little, at least.
(And whenever I hear complaints about things that I thought were alright,
I can't help wondering if I'm too uncritical...
but ignorance is bliss, I suppose.)
4) Church
Thankful for St Helen's (oops, nearly typed St Hellen's lol).
Sometimes it feels a little too perfect(? I can't really explain it),
but it's given me new perspectives on things.
-I'm now better able to see the bigger picture
(whether it's my life or the present moment in the context of eternity/the new creation,
or each Bible verse in the context of the chapter --> book --> Bible).
-Focus on the Word, and on the role of the Word in convicting us.
-One-to-one's have also been incredibly helpful,
just being able to see how St H's bible-reading principles can work in a v positive way
(unlike small groups where leaders may not necessarily bring them to bear in the spirit in which they were meant),
working through books bit by bit and discovering for myself what they mean to me,
learning skills I could see myself applying back home with others,
being excited to see the changes V will be making in ZB after going back... ack. :'D
-Tons of good feeding from the sermons and talks.
Just the variety of things that go on and are actually highly targeted/invite good speakers?
-Community - S, A, H, J in particular.
5) Things I miss most:
-PEOPLE, mostly. And sharing lives.
This time back, it was great to catch up with the people I could catch up with.
Family (mostly Nainai and S), K, A, P, Y, J, V, the York girls, BOD (whom I didn't get to meet this time round, sigh ><).
-Home cooking.
Current entertainment:
-On a C-drama run atm (kickstarted by Lang Ya Bang, ugh).
I rue the day I started down the rabbithole - they are LONG and I end up watching loads at a go.
And if the storyline peters out I've invested so much time already that I have to see it through, haha.
-Subin's solo mini is all-round loveliness.
-Also the 方大同 X 王力宏 collab! Jam.
This folksy simplicity ;;
Less immediately arresting/singable than his first album, perhaps,
but more intimate -
alternately tender and bold, draws from deeper,
speaks straight to the heart.
Less immediately arresting/singable than his first album, perhaps,
but more intimate -
alternately tender and bold, draws from deeper,
speaks straight to the heart.
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Sep. 27th, 2014 01:02 pmWOW (no pun intended)
It's not just the vocal talent -
it's the amount of effort that goes into the singing,
and the fact that Eunkwang is constantly monitoring the mix and giving musical directions.
Hats off.
I mean, I'd always known they were a good group,
but I never loved most of their original music so I didn't bother looking further.
I HAVE OFFICIALLY SEEN THE LIGHT.
/brb, making up for all that lost time
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May. 28th, 2014 11:47 pmFun jam feat. the cutest showbiz BFFs to ever BFF hamming it up -
the question is, what's /not/ to like??
Also: The Barberettes' album is absolutely amazing, I owe you one Omona ;;
Music Core 08022014
Feb. 8th, 2014 04:22 pmYes to everythinggg ugh these guys
Lesson: good camera angles - I almost typed 'angels' lmao - make all the difference.
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Dec. 15th, 2013 09:35 pmMusic:
-ACTUAL QUEEN
-RADWIMPS' NEW ALBUM IS SO GOOD?
This surprised me, actually -
I was excited, but loving nearly every track off one of their albums is a definite first for me.
-MODERN TIMES REPACKAGE ON 20 DEC ASDLJFWL
Trying to get back into the reading habit.
Attempt #1 was Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close,
which was... a bit of a disappointment, to say the least. D:
Occasional moments of promise (beautifully-expressed thoughts, an interesting - if caricatured - main character)
but ugh so painfully pretentious,
especially that whole subplot about mute grandpa
and that useless scene about the bombings and the escaped zoo animals
(which I remember for all the wrong reasons).
Very Miss-Miss-lookie-I-can-write! tryhard.
Attempt #2: So I decided to borrow the first book that caught my eye, commercial or otherwise,
and ended up with Let The Right One In (I know, something like 4-5 years late).
About a third of the way through now and it's difficult going (the ugliness is kind of suffocating)
but it is bald and chilling and just all-round fab.
Then I gave up the indiscriminate gig and borrowed an Auster book. :3
ETA:
Finished Let The Right One In.
Getting the brickbats out of the way:
1) It sort of ran out of speed in the last third.
Something to do with the multiple parallel storylines and brief lapses into floridity, I think.
2) Appreciated the devotion to detail, but the vampire mythology was a tad too neat/complete
(by the end I pm know exactly how vampires are made, why stakes kill,
what bloodlust feels like(!) and why it's so difficult to resist, etc etc).
Leave something to the imagination pls :(
But I loved it.
Actually remarked out loud at one point that this felt like the future of modern horror lit?
I adore that the vampire menace was merely a vehicle to explore the monsters humans carry in us.
Our brutality, our fear, our pride, those shameful urges we hide from the public eye;
our thirst (no pun intended) for life even at the expense of others
(you even get Virginia as a symbol of the choices Eli could have made but didn't,
just in case you didn't catch it the first time round).
Oskar's eventual isolation and departure is - more than a product of his relationship with Eli -
the culmination of bullying, bystander effects, permissive parenting...
and, perhaps, a simple lack of understanding.
It's a feat that this is where most of the bleakness in the novel lies,
not in cheap supernatural/gore tricks (though this was nicely done too, lol).
Also: ambiguous, sympathetic characters and relationships,
pretty good use of multiple POVs to tell a story non-repetitively (though that pesky lack of gaps again),
the matter-of-fact handling of pricklier subjects (homosexuality, gender, paedophilia),
nicely crisp style.
-ACTUAL QUEEN
-RADWIMPS' NEW ALBUM IS SO GOOD?
This surprised me, actually -
I was excited, but loving nearly every track off one of their albums is a definite first for me.
-MODERN TIMES REPACKAGE ON 20 DEC ASDLJFWL
Trying to get back into the reading habit.
Attempt #1 was Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close,
which was... a bit of a disappointment, to say the least. D:
Occasional moments of promise (beautifully-expressed thoughts, an interesting - if caricatured - main character)
but ugh so painfully pretentious,
especially that whole subplot about mute grandpa
and that useless scene about the bombings and the escaped zoo animals
(which I remember for all the wrong reasons).
Very Miss-Miss-lookie-I-can-write! tryhard.
Attempt #2: So I decided to borrow the first book that caught my eye, commercial or otherwise,
and ended up with Let The Right One In (I know, something like 4-5 years late).
About a third of the way through now and it's difficult going (the ugliness is kind of suffocating)
but it is bald and chilling and just all-round fab.
Then I gave up the indiscriminate gig and borrowed an Auster book. :3
ETA:
Finished Let The Right One In.
Getting the brickbats out of the way:
1) It sort of ran out of speed in the last third.
Something to do with the multiple parallel storylines and brief lapses into floridity, I think.
2) Appreciated the devotion to detail, but the vampire mythology was a tad too neat/complete
(by the end I pm know exactly how vampires are made, why stakes kill,
what bloodlust feels like(!) and why it's so difficult to resist, etc etc).
Leave something to the imagination pls :(
But I loved it.
Actually remarked out loud at one point that this felt like the future of modern horror lit?
I adore that the vampire menace was merely a vehicle to explore the monsters humans carry in us.
Our brutality, our fear, our pride, those shameful urges we hide from the public eye;
our thirst (no pun intended) for life even at the expense of others
(you even get Virginia as a symbol of the choices Eli could have made but didn't,
just in case you didn't catch it the first time round).
Oskar's eventual isolation and departure is - more than a product of his relationship with Eli -
the culmination of bullying, bystander effects, permissive parenting...
and, perhaps, a simple lack of understanding.
It's a feat that this is where most of the bleakness in the novel lies,
not in cheap supernatural/gore tricks (though this was nicely done too, lol).
Also: ambiguous, sympathetic characters and relationships,
pretty good use of multiple POVs to tell a story non-repetitively (though that pesky lack of gaps again),
the matter-of-fact handling of pricklier subjects (homosexuality, gender, paedophilia),
nicely crisp style.
MODERN TIMES
Oct. 8th, 2013 08:04 pmI'm in love with these album lyrics, goodness.
Still want a full album in IU's native style but this is likely as good as it gets otherwise.
Imperfections notwithstanding, yesyesYES ;;
When I read opinions on music that disagree with mine,
sometimes I think - spitefully - 'but you like XXX's music, so that invalidates your opinion. Ha.'
And I get all smirky and self-congratulatory...
before I remember that I'm an Arashi and BAP fan, lolol.
Home is a (cold)warzone;
idk if Mom and Nainai need to leave each other alone even more so they can cool down
or if Nainai's loneliness is exacerbating things.
The family dynamics feel different now?
The tension's always been there but now it's escalating;
doesn't help that Nainai's actions are getting less comprehensible/more frustrating
and Mom is losing patience.
And Dad and I, forever stuck in the middle.
Just listening to the two /vent/ makes me want to cry.
Which is mildly hilarious, if you think about it.
(This morning Nainai said she wanted to leave - I didn't know what she expected me to say.)
Someone tell me what to do, ugh.
Still want a full album in IU's native style but this is likely as good as it gets otherwise.
Imperfections notwithstanding, yesyesYES ;;
When I read opinions on music that disagree with mine,
sometimes I think - spitefully - 'but you like XXX's music, so that invalidates your opinion. Ha.'
And I get all smirky and self-congratulatory...
before I remember that I'm an Arashi and BAP fan, lolol.
Home is a (cold)warzone;
idk if Mom and Nainai need to leave each other alone even more so they can cool down
or if Nainai's loneliness is exacerbating things.
The family dynamics feel different now?
The tension's always been there but now it's escalating;
doesn't help that Nainai's actions are getting less comprehensible/more frustrating
and Mom is losing patience.
And Dad and I, forever stuck in the middle.
Just listening to the two /vent/ makes me want to cry.
Which is mildly hilarious, if you think about it.
(This morning Nainai said she wanted to leave - I didn't know what she expected me to say.)
Someone tell me what to do, ugh.
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Aug. 9th, 2013 10:32 pmDouble Tone, finale:
Ended on a neat - if predictable - note.
One thing: didn't understand why Tamura Yumi WOULDN'T retain awareness of Nakano Yumi,
since only the future was changed?
Unless the whole scenario was reset once the problem was solved,
but sigh can you say unnecessary. :(
東京の空 takes off all my rough edges.
Perfect song, perfect drama. ;;
Music Bank:
Oh wow M.jup just stole every single frame he was in (way kid moves is smouldering *O*).
The MV should've just been them dancing -
then it wouldn't even have had the /chance/ to devolve into an incoherent mess.
Also: Junhong rapping in CS like that kid we all know
who is too embarrassed to take his school play lines seriously lol.
ALL THESE OHNO MAG SPREADS :Q___ gotta catch 'em all
Ended on a neat - if predictable - note.
One thing: didn't understand why Tamura Yumi WOULDN'T retain awareness of Nakano Yumi,
since only the future was changed?
Unless the whole scenario was reset once the problem was solved,
but sigh can you say unnecessary. :(
東京の空 takes off all my rough edges.
Perfect song, perfect drama. ;;
Music Bank:
Oh wow M.jup just stole every single frame he was in (way kid moves is smouldering *O*).
The MV should've just been them dancing -
then it wouldn't even have had the /chance/ to devolve into an incoherent mess.
Also: Junhong rapping in CS like that kid we all know
who is too embarrassed to take his school play lines seriously lol.
ALL THESE OHNO MAG SPREADS :Q___ gotta catch 'em all
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Jul. 18th, 2013 03:10 pmHanzawa Naoki, ep1:
Sakai Masato infuses every move with so much steely (ponderous?) gravitas
I feel like I'm in a period drama hahaha (Ooku, maybe? Lol).
Idk how the plot's going to hold up over ten/however many episodes they're planning,
but this was a pretty promising start, imo?
The message seems fairly standard,
but Hanzawa is so awfully rootable-for -
I was legit chanting 'YES GIVE IT TO THEMMM' throughout that inquiry scene -
and Aya is hilarious and generally adorable
(a bit too bubbly at points? But still. Adorable. *O* ).
I like how down-and-dirty the financial stuff gets (even if it's just for laughs),
and how the hero ISN'T BATTLING THE SYSTEM ALL ALONE bc that would be so tiring to watch.
(I also kind of want to find out what he planned to do when he reached the top of Tokyo Chuo asdlifjw)
I DIDN'T RECOGNISE YUTO AT FIRST.
HE ACTUALLY LOOKS LIKE A TWENTY-SOMETHING-YEAR-OLD?
WHEN DID THAT HAPPEN?
Woman, ep2:
Cancer?? SHOW I TRUSTED YOU :(((
The tone so far is - sadly enough - similar to that of Mother
(though I wasn't expecting anything different),
and the subs seem to be missing important nuances of the dialogue,
but I love the dimension Shiori adds to the enterprise
(it's interesting because without her the show really could just be titled 'Mother' as well,
but I suppose a redefining of the relationship between Koharu and Shin is on the cards)
and Nozomi is lovely.
Watched Tantei wa Bar ni Iru and Fune o Amu on the plane;
have yet to see Ryuhei play a character that rouses him beyond languor lol.
Caught Platina Data too,
but was too distracted by the scientific implausibility of the premise to appreciate it. ><
Though it did confirm that Nino makes a much better Sad Person than Angry lmao.
Bought the Ryu scenes more than the Kagura ones.
I really liked the Strawberry Night movie. :D
The whodunit plotline lived up to my expectations.
Yeah the ~doomed love interest~ angle was sort of gratuitous
but the chemistry was fab so it wasn't even close to disappointing (apparently I am easy to please).
They didn't milk the splitting of the Himekawa team as much as they could have though.
I WANTED YOU TO MAKE ME CRY, SIGH.
(Though I for one would not want Himekawa as my leader lol.)
And ofc one obligatory screech - just one! - of KIKUTA-SAMA COME TO MEEE
Listening to D.M. rn and it's pretty good?
I mean, there's no urge to skip songs like there was for his other two albums.
And it's cute how Daichi is all happy kid while performing and 'yo brotha' attempts at ~swag~ offstage
(and sometimes onstage too haha).
Gaps are the best thing. :')
NEW LEO SONG ON THE 24TH YESSS BB IS BACK~~
BEG ON THE 29TH;
SPYAIR ON 7 AUG (PLEASE BE AS GOOD AS IKE IS HOT).
Okay. Hurricane.
It's actually funny because this is so far removed from what I typically listen to
that I couldn't even tell if it was good or bad
(I have yet to be able to get through a full listen of Fantastic Baby /orz).
Omona (mostly) says it's basic;
me - it has its catchy moments, and I like the use of Dae's voice
(e.g. the pretty 'oh's, the slight staccato on 'star')
and, upon further listen, Zelo's rap -
but otherwise... D:
+ TOO MUCH DAE, TOO MUCH
coupled with the unintentional hilarity of the MV
(some caper film-esque storyline would have saved it but NOPE
they decide to have random shots of members jamming in place/in party cars lol)
and the disappointment stemming from the fact that these producers are the No Mercy ones...
I'm assuming they're saving the big guns for the final song/MV so TS DON'T DISAPPOINT PLZ.
Not to mention all three title songs are different
so the last will probably be as far removed from this as this is from Coffee Shop.
Sakai Masato infuses every move with so much steely (ponderous?) gravitas
I feel like I'm in a period drama hahaha (Ooku, maybe? Lol).
Idk how the plot's going to hold up over ten/however many episodes they're planning,
but this was a pretty promising start, imo?
The message seems fairly standard,
but Hanzawa is so awfully rootable-for -
I was legit chanting 'YES GIVE IT TO THEMMM' throughout that inquiry scene -
and Aya is hilarious and generally adorable
(a bit too bubbly at points? But still. Adorable. *O* ).
I like how down-and-dirty the financial stuff gets (even if it's just for laughs),
and how the hero ISN'T BATTLING THE SYSTEM ALL ALONE bc that would be so tiring to watch.
(I also kind of want to find out what he planned to do when he reached the top of Tokyo Chuo asdlifjw)
I DIDN'T RECOGNISE YUTO AT FIRST.
HE ACTUALLY LOOKS LIKE A TWENTY-SOMETHING-YEAR-OLD?
WHEN DID THAT HAPPEN?
Woman, ep2:
Cancer?? SHOW I TRUSTED YOU :(((
The tone so far is - sadly enough - similar to that of Mother
(though I wasn't expecting anything different),
and the subs seem to be missing important nuances of the dialogue,
but I love the dimension Shiori adds to the enterprise
(it's interesting because without her the show really could just be titled 'Mother' as well,
but I suppose a redefining of the relationship between Koharu and Shin is on the cards)
and Nozomi is lovely.
Watched Tantei wa Bar ni Iru and Fune o Amu on the plane;
have yet to see Ryuhei play a character that rouses him beyond languor lol.
Caught Platina Data too,
but was too distracted by the scientific implausibility of the premise to appreciate it. ><
Though it did confirm that Nino makes a much better Sad Person than Angry lmao.
Bought the Ryu scenes more than the Kagura ones.
I really liked the Strawberry Night movie. :D
The whodunit plotline lived up to my expectations.
Yeah the ~doomed love interest~ angle was sort of gratuitous
but the chemistry was fab so it wasn't even close to disappointing (apparently I am easy to please).
They didn't milk the splitting of the Himekawa team as much as they could have though.
I WANTED YOU TO MAKE ME CRY, SIGH.
(Though I for one would not want Himekawa as my leader lol.)
Listening to D.M. rn and it's pretty good?
I mean, there's no urge to skip songs like there was for his other two albums.
And it's cute how Daichi is all happy kid while performing and 'yo brotha' attempts at ~swag~ offstage
(and sometimes onstage too haha).
Gaps are the best thing. :')
NEW LEO SONG ON THE 24TH YESSS BB IS BACK~~
BEG ON THE 29TH;
SPYAIR ON 7 AUG (PLEASE BE AS GOOD AS IKE IS HOT).
Okay. Hurricane.
It's actually funny because this is so far removed from what I typically listen to
that I couldn't even tell if it was good or bad
(I have yet to be able to get through a full listen of Fantastic Baby /orz).
Omona (mostly) says it's basic;
me - it has its catchy moments, and I like the use of Dae's voice
(e.g. the pretty 'oh's, the slight staccato on 'star')
and, upon further listen, Zelo's rap -
but otherwise... D:
+ TOO MUCH DAE, TOO MUCH
coupled with the unintentional hilarity of the MV
(some caper film-esque storyline would have saved it but NOPE
they decide to have random shots of members jamming in place/in party cars lol)
and the disappointment stemming from the fact that these producers are the No Mercy ones...
I'm assuming they're saving the big guns for the final song/MV so TS DON'T DISAPPOINT PLZ.
Not to mention all three title songs are different
so the last will probably be as far removed from this as this is from Coffee Shop.
(no subject)
Jun. 30th, 2013 05:33 amDear God,
Thank you so much for the first -
so undeserved, particularly given my incompetence
and/or lack of motivation (in various combinations) this year. ;;
All to your glory, truly.
I wish I knew how to express it more eloquently.
( last-minute pre-convocation travels )
COFFEE SHOP'S LOUNGE PIANO ACCOMPANIMENT IS SO LOVELY?
Not just the notes themselves, but their placements -
the way they don't fit, yet DO.
It doesn't feel like an obligatory publicity featuring at all.
I just wish BAP had a vocalist that combined Jae's tone with Dae's technique
because it would have lifted the song from light-pretty to a... fuller beauty(?)
without the aid of power notes.
I really like it, nonetheless (mostly because of said piano and /that/ MV, haha).
ETA: Freak I just rewatched the MV and was blown away - again - by the beauty of it all.
I could randomly pick ANY screencap and it would be tumblr-ready.
I think I can say I enjoy BAP's music (performances are another matter, lol)
less because it has a signature style
than because I know I can count on TS/BYG to churn out songs
that are solidly-constructed and solidly-produced no matter the style.
Much like I think that the main reason for my falling out of love with SHINee's Korean music
(bc the boys remain awesome performers and amazing live singers)
is SM's cluttered production -
in which, apparently, 'epic' means turning the dial up on the special effects
(the same trap BYG's solos sometimes fall into)
and making songs sound like they were recorded in an auditorium.
Thank you so much for the first -
so undeserved, particularly given my incompetence
and/or lack of motivation (in various combinations) this year. ;;
All to your glory, truly.
I wish I knew how to express it more eloquently.
( last-minute pre-convocation travels )
COFFEE SHOP'S LOUNGE PIANO ACCOMPANIMENT IS SO LOVELY?
Not just the notes themselves, but their placements -
the way they don't fit, yet DO.
It doesn't feel like an obligatory publicity featuring at all.
I just wish BAP had a vocalist that combined Jae's tone with Dae's technique
because it would have lifted the song from light-pretty to a... fuller beauty(?)
without the aid of power notes.
I really like it, nonetheless (mostly because of said piano and /that/ MV, haha).
ETA: Freak I just rewatched the MV and was blown away - again - by the beauty of it all.
I could randomly pick ANY screencap and it would be tumblr-ready.
I think I can say I enjoy BAP's music (performances are another matter, lol)
less because it has a signature style
than because I know I can count on TS/BYG to churn out songs
that are solidly-constructed and solidly-produced no matter the style.
Much like I think that the main reason for my falling out of love with SHINee's Korean music
(bc the boys remain awesome performers and amazing live singers)
is SM's cluttered production -
in which, apparently, 'epic' means turning the dial up on the special effects
(the same trap BYG's solos sometimes fall into)
and making songs sound like they were recorded in an auditorium.
(no subject)
Jun. 13th, 2013 11:13 pm- Kai is the definition of bleeding heart lol.
OT but I really liked how his chosen profession matched his personality perfectly?
It made his decision to drop the cushy job so much more understandable.
- KaiXSae = OTP4EVA
GOODNESS COULD YOU TWO GET ANY SWEETER ;;
Perfect romance tbh (the parts before+when they're actually together, that is).
So much honesty, sincere support and excellent advice.
When the-gf-no-one-gives-a-hoot-about broke up with Kai
I emitted a squeak - alright, several - of delirious joy.
- The characters' scraps of monologue were written beautifully
(cf. Sae's lines about birdsong in ep1, Kai's 'better than a frog but not as good as Chemistry' xD).
- Kou played Sae amazingly.
And l-lol I'm actually mourning - v retrospectively - the Tsumabuki Satoshi X Kou breakup. :(
- Eita is adorable. :')
- The working of the signing into the dialogue/plot was surprisingly well done?
What with the switching amongst subtitles, characters translating for other characters,
and internal speech (where even the choice of narrator was significant).
And it was a great demonstration of how signing
can often be much more expressive than spoken words.
- The last two or so eps devolved into the mass of misunderstandings/bad decisions
I detest seeing in dramas. :(
- I feel like I've watched Nari Hiroki play the same character multiple times.
Likewise, the ShoheiXAkane plotline was qt but seemed a little played-out.
Lmao the new After School song would be so. much. better
without those horrendous background sound effects
(e.g. the squeaks of 'baby' - ummm what - and the random 'hey's).
Brave Bros have mastered the art of destroying songs.
The $2 bargain-bin MV didn't help, of course -
the only good things about the whole enterprise were pm the pole dancing and AS themselves.
OT but I really liked how his chosen profession matched his personality perfectly?
It made his decision to drop the cushy job so much more understandable.
- KaiXSae = OTP4EVA
GOODNESS COULD YOU TWO GET ANY SWEETER ;;
Perfect romance tbh (the parts before+when they're actually together, that is).
So much honesty, sincere support and excellent advice.
When the-gf-no-one-gives-a-hoot-about broke up with Kai
I emitted a squeak - alright, several - of delirious joy.
- The characters' scraps of monologue were written beautifully
(cf. Sae's lines about birdsong in ep1, Kai's 'better than a frog but not as good as Chemistry' xD).
- Kou played Sae amazingly.
And l-lol I'm actually mourning - v retrospectively - the Tsumabuki Satoshi X Kou breakup. :(
- Eita is adorable. :')
- The working of the signing into the dialogue/plot was surprisingly well done?
What with the switching amongst subtitles, characters translating for other characters,
and internal speech (where even the choice of narrator was significant).
And it was a great demonstration of how signing
can often be much more expressive than spoken words.
- The last two or so eps devolved into the mass of misunderstandings/bad decisions
I detest seeing in dramas. :(
- I feel like I've watched Nari Hiroki play the same character multiple times.
Likewise, the ShoheiXAkane plotline was qt but seemed a little played-out.
Lmao the new After School song would be so. much. better
without those horrendous background sound effects
(e.g. the squeaks of 'baby' - ummm what - and the random 'hey's).
Brave Bros have mastered the art of destroying songs.
The $2 bargain-bin MV didn't help, of course -
the only good things about the whole enterprise were pm the pole dancing and AS themselves.
TW press con
Jun. 8th, 2013 06:31 pmIn which:
- BAP is awkward.
- M.jup is adorable in his ~1.25s of talktime.
- Jae attempts halting Mandarin
(I feel a kinship, in that I'm fairly sure he's better at his foreign languages when practising in private),
Himchan/Jongup trot out one of the two (maybe three) sentences they know,
and the rest of BAP do not even try. ><
- The host/translator are delightfully informal
(are all TW press cons like this? Some of those side comments were super cute :'D)
but dumb down the question I really wanted to hear their answer to
(the one about the rowdy airport crowd).
- BYG should just answer the majority of the questions.
Zelo should be barred from answering any.
(AND LMAO DON'T PARROT BYG IN A PRESS CON, KID. -.-')
- BYG engages in his current favourite pastime, aka Himchan-teasing.
Best moment, tbqh - when did he get so relaxed at these things? :'D
They didn't actually manage to sell out the TW concert. Interesting.
Goosehouse peeps are the actual cutest *o*
And because there's no opportunity like the present
(and because 方大同 turns my thoughts - it'd probably be too much to call them reflections - inward),
real life:
1. So thankful to God for the job
(especially since it's not like the interview went swimmingly or anything);
it'll be excellent experience and v helpful for postgrad apps.
Now praying hard for good grades (esp on that screwy second CPS essay D:)/
that I don't crash and burn at the last hurdle (sigh, how awful/disappointing would that be). ;;
2. Time in the UK is nearing its end.
On the one hand, it's sad, and yet... idk, I guess I'm ready to go back.
I think much of the sadness arises from the fact that this marks the ending of a phase,
and the rest of it from the fact that I love this place/
all the ~charms it has which are absent from SG city life.
Other Singaporeans aside,
I don't think I've formed any relationships with people here that I will be unable to live without.
(Rather ironically, perhaps that is the saddest bit of all - though what is done is done.)
3. Three resolutions for the next month and beyond:
#1: Invest in relationships.
#2: Immerse myself in beautiful things. Read more poetry.
#3: Absorb all the knowledge I can.
- BAP is awkward.
- M.jup is adorable in his ~1.25s of talktime.
- Jae attempts halting Mandarin
(I feel a kinship, in that I'm fairly sure he's better at his foreign languages when practising in private),
Himchan/Jongup trot out one of the two (maybe three) sentences they know,
and the rest of BAP do not even try. ><
- The host/translator are delightfully informal
(are all TW press cons like this? Some of those side comments were super cute :'D)
but dumb down the question I really wanted to hear their answer to
(the one about the rowdy airport crowd).
- BYG should just answer the majority of the questions.
Zelo should be barred from answering any.
(AND LMAO DON'T PARROT BYG IN A PRESS CON, KID. -.-')
- BYG engages in his current favourite pastime, aka Himchan-teasing.
Best moment, tbqh - when did he get so relaxed at these things? :'D
They didn't actually manage to sell out the TW concert. Interesting.
Goosehouse peeps are the actual cutest *o*
And because there's no opportunity like the present
(and because 方大同 turns my thoughts - it'd probably be too much to call them reflections - inward),
real life:
1. So thankful to God for the job
(especially since it's not like the interview went swimmingly or anything);
it'll be excellent experience and v helpful for postgrad apps.
Now praying hard for good grades (esp on that screwy second CPS essay D:)/
that I don't crash and burn at the last hurdle (sigh, how awful/disappointing would that be). ;;
2. Time in the UK is nearing its end.
On the one hand, it's sad, and yet... idk, I guess I'm ready to go back.
I think much of the sadness arises from the fact that this marks the ending of a phase,
and the rest of it from the fact that I love this place/
all the ~charms it has which are absent from SG city life.
Other Singaporeans aside,
I don't think I've formed any relationships with people here that I will be unable to live without.
(Rather ironically, perhaps that is the saddest bit of all - though what is done is done.)
3. Three resolutions for the next month and beyond:
#1: Invest in relationships.
#2: Immerse myself in beautiful things. Read more poetry.
#3: Absorb all the knowledge I can.
(no subject)
May. 18th, 2013 10:05 amNEARLY-FLAWLESS I REMEMBER PERFORMANCE, WOW
DAE I CAN'T WITH YOUR VOICE.
(and this shawol takes amazing fancams - girl ilu <3)
